"Help! I Need Somebody"

One thing I have learnt in the last weekend, is that breaking friendships at this age feels like ending a relationship. I feel angry, that I haven't been understood, and that i am expected to be in the wrong when i know im not (I admit we didnt really go the right way about confronting it but thats not to say my point is wrong.)

The last time i can remember falling out with a friend was back in school, with my very long term best friend Lauren, and that was a petty thing that was solved overnight by posting a cute pink letter through the door with an apology and a proposal of a dog walk after the simpsons.
If only things were that easy now.

I have also come to learn that mental illnesses are much out of my comprehension, I don't think i will ever fully understand the clutches it has on a victim, as I have never had the experience.

So as selfish as it sounds, through my lack of knowledge I am completely unable to feel the necessity to immerse myself into caring for a friend. Caring as in the term of the person being completely reliant on me/us as her only source of socialism, and the potential of me having to put my life on hold at this crutial point of my life.
The future plans we had together would have inevitably ended up in this situation and would have pushed us all away in the end.

So im kinda glad its all being brought up now, as hard as it is, it was going to happen sooner or later. I just hope I can still salvage some kind of friendship from this ordeal.

Wristcutters (a weird story)

So I just watched a film id been recommended by a friend in my class, who very vaguely filled me in on what it was about so i thought id give it a go.

So it starts off very nicely, Average character, cleaning his room, when bam, lets go to the sink and slit my wrists and die on the floor looking at some bum fluff....ok....ill roll with this.

So he turns up in a weird limbo world where people who have commited suicidal deaths go, and its all very grey, identical to earth but not as full of life, or colourful, or entertaining, and here its a given thing that no one smiles.

He meets (who i swear is based on the lead singer of Gogol Bordello) A Russian guitarist, who he starts riding around in a proper tin box car with to find Desiree, his former love, and the reason he 'offed' himself' (after finding out from some random dude that she also topped herself soon after him.)
They bump into a girl hitchiking on the side of the road, and Eugene (hutz) loves it and picks her up immediately. So they drive endlessly on, where they bump into Tom Waits in some cult group place, and decide to stay there, where gogol bordello guy falls in love with some weird mute woman who sings wierdly with throat noises......anyway,

so then they find out from one of the cult members, that a guy is doing an 'act' the next day, which they have to attend. But Zia (main guy) and Mikal (hitchiker girl) end up getting jiggy on the beach and sleeping on a prostitute spot ontop of needles and condoms. (...ok)

So they get to this gathering, and this guy claims he can get back to the living world and tell them all about this limbo land they can come to, so he stabs himself, and then all the 'people in charge' all dressed in white suits, come and break up the crowds and take everyone away...Mikal goes off with a white person in a tiny van and says to Zia she'll be back in 5, more like 5 days, as she ends up returning home as she was there from overdosing which counts as a 'mistake' (and somehow gogol bordello guy knew this...)

So obviously, she commits actual intentional suicide again to be legit in this place, cause she realises she loved Zia. Zia did eventually findn Desiree btw, but she was completely indoctrinated by this crazy prophet guy who stabbed himself, so shes a bit of a weirdo now (and a SHIT actress) and is out of the picture by the end of the last scene. So Zia runs around in the car looking for Mikal, who coisidently just goes through what looks like customs, back into this limo world.
Oh and also another weird point of this film theres a black hole under the passenger seat, which he decides to fall down, turns out thats the void that takes you back to earth, and he wakes up in a hospital next to a bed where Mikal is laying.

End.


thoughts?

I think it looks like something i'd make next year when I have the assets of equipment and actors like that...considering it came from a novella, I kinda wanna read it now.

There was something missing from it, which is how I felt at the end of Rebel Tribe ( the major I made last year, eventhough that was really confused for several other reasons which werent wholly my fault) in the words of rob, 'it didnt have a clear meaning/didn't really go anywhere' i disagree with the second half, but i agree something more was needed..

I like how it looked, some amazing sky shots in there, I like the concept, as its so simple and I wouldnt have thought it could work like that, but it did, i like how charming the story line was, and i liked the characters, as weird as they all were.

I also loved that Tom Waits was in it.

Over all, I like, in between a 2 and a 3 star film. would see it again, am not blown away, but intrigued.

'Frozen Britain' (or not so frozen britain)

Just got back from our Cambridge adventure, went up to interview Tobias' Friends as they work for Jagex and would have valid opinions on our documentaries subject matter. Was really awesome, they were lovely, was a long drive up though, about four hours. >_<
We then picked up Dominika and went to Tobias' Dad's horse ranch, which was very nice but COLDDDD as their central heating had broken!!! We watched The Rutles (a parody film about the beatles) and then went to bed.
We woke up this morning to extremely heavy snow, as you can see below, which is what we had to drive through for the first hour till we reached the duel carriageways and motorways!!!


We made it back though, and in good time thanks to Mr. Asman. So yeah, just thought i'd give that little update, felt more exciting than I have written here haha. We also made some funny podcasts in the service station eating burger king which is entertaining, not sure if ryan's doing anything with them though.

Now for a whole day of getting flash sorted...arghhh >_<

Update soon!

Love Manda x x x

Everything's Gonna Be Cool This Christmas

Howdy, I've just returned to Weymouth, and decided writing my blog is the priority to unpacking my ridiculous amount of luggage.
So where to begin, I got back on sunday, when the snow began to fall,


me and becky went for a walk up to wells and found a rather odd sight...
Becky reckoned it was the 'buddha man' who walks around wells with no shoes, ever, and is banned from most of the shops because of this. Weird.

Monday morning woke up with a sore throat, never good, and I knew that a long and troublesome cough was coming for my christmas holiday.

The next event was on Wednesday, Daddy set off to London to deliver the mirrors he'd spent the last three weeks making in time for Xmas. It was freezing conditions when he left, but he said it'd be fine. He apparently got to Salisbury Plains, where it began to rain in the morning, unfortunately it was too cold for the rain to melt as it hit the ice, which inevitably created more ice, black ice. My dad said it froze as it hit the windscreen, and as he was pondering this, the van started to skid as he trundled along the long road at some 50mph.
He then hit the bank on the side of the road, and skidded along the bumpy surface for about 20 yards, the force of the speed of the van meant that when he hit a big bump in the bank, it was enough force to push the vehicle back onto the road, and slide it around the opposite way on the road. Luckilly the road was quiet with nothing coming that way, otherwise that would have been a head on crash. So he pulled into a layby and checked the damage, no wing mirror on his side, a big dent in the side, and 4 big mirrors smashed to smithereens, including an original antique one. And he came out of it with a broken finger nail, literally. The irony or the amount of mirrors broken must have broken the old wives tale as he was VERY lucky, this accident could have been far, far worse, two days before Christmas. >_< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgA29PtBQylRpCfcrNR2okLm91sBzYUWNJ9beGih-aAxJz_d8qRXnFyglNN29Mk5K8rT-Pv4pZsKMldYMUx3f59xOCF0OwmTtVZoS2v8EHKcK53h6RS2YVRtxlV7NBjEHxQxXsjOqydV24/s1600-h/100_2223.JPG">

Despite this, wednesday evening was very lovely, I organised a meal for my friends at home, which was lots of laughs and lovely presents being exchanged, from a belly dancing kit, to a sky lantern. :-D Lovely, here's a pic from this evening




So Christmas came around, I got many lovely things, including a Wii which is something I really wanted, and Wiifit so I now have no excuse for not excersizing now!
Got a raving rabbids game as well, which has a game that you can control by sitting on the wiifit board and using your bum to move! haha! Lots of fun.
And Joe got my laptop, I think he was rather excited!


Also finally got round to developing my black and white pics from summer at disneyland :-) Luckilly I got quite a few of them come out after having dad's clunky Practika camera's back opening when it liked, which is not helpful. So two of my reels were half wiped, but I managed to get one whole reel of 36 pics which I was impressed with :-) Here's my favourite pic

Saw the Grandparents, my cousin mike, my auntie ruth and uncle rob, and my cousin matt, who I rarely see, which was cool.
Was going to go to Bristol to Phil and Ed's house for New Years, but two days before decided I would be far too ill to handle partying with the boys and coughing my lungs up over them. So I decided to opt for the Laurel and Hardy, followed by Jools Holland's Hootenanny option. With which I was treated with seeing out the year with my current love, Paolo Nutini <3>_<)
And then retired to the attic for the last night.

now to unpack....oh gahd.

Good to be back in the house though :-)

LOVE HOBBIT GIRL X X X X X